For many, pregnancy isn't as easy as you thought it'd be. Many couples striving to begin their family find the pain before the joy. A lot of couples lose their babies before they get a chance to hold them + most of these couples keep their loss to themselves. They associate losing children or not being able to get pregnant with "something is wrong with me," but that's not always the case. Here is a letter from one of my KKP mamas about her journey to becoming a mom. I hope + pray that all who come across this post find encouragement, hope + faith in her words.
God has been so good to us and this pregnancy has really showed us that having faith in Him is the only true way to live your life.
Back in April of 2014 Steven and I experienced a miscarriage that rocked our world. As loosing a child is extremely difficult, Steven continued to lead me to the cross and beg for my heart to be healed.
After six months of trying to get pregnant again we were able to meet a new OBGYN who was willing and eager to help us in our struggles. Although, we had a doctor who continued to tell me that none of it was my fault or Steven's fault, I continued to believe that something was wrong with me.
After much prayer and direction, our doctor referred us to Fertility Associates of Memphis (FAM). At FAM, we were greeted with smiling faces and eager hearts to figure out a plan for us. Following a quick surgery to remove endometriosis and a polyp, we were told that our next step would be an IUI, and that we had less than 12% chance of getting pregnant on our own. We prayed and prayed over what to do. Steven felt strongly that God was tugging on his heart to wait, and have faith in His plan.
Little did both of us know, God had already blessed us with the greatest miracle of all. After a year and a half of prayers and tears and more prayers, God blessed us with a sweet baby girl.
The pain of loosing a child doesn't go away, but the constant reminder that God was, is and will always be with us in times of struggles and happiness makes the pain that much easier.